After realizing just how long it had been since I had updated JAG-wire I read over my previous post and had a good laugh with myself. In the beginning of the year I had this idea of not only doing an MA paper, but doing three big papers – including data from surveys, interviews, and content analysis all while reading tomes in the kitchen sink. It would seem my youth is showing – I didn’t realize just how much work it is to research, write, teach, begin a PhD and try maintain a happy life. Beyond this it turns out I had more than enough material in my multi-year Facebook data set to push out a paper, even if it’s not a study as good as all of the ones I keep trying to find time to read. So here’s the thing: I’m losing track of my dream of an adventure in altruistic academe and really need to get it back.
All of this Facebook hubub is wonderful – I mean I even got to meet my quasi-heroes danah boyd and Fred Stutzman at the ASIS&T conference the other week (oh and turns out my STS theory might not be a load of crock!) – but what happened to my dream of getting a PhD in helping people? The first shock was finding out that Sociology here has little to do with anything domestic outreach related, the second was waking up and wondering how the crap I got so engrossed in my studies that I forgot about the basics of what I wish to do with my life. Sure I get the blessed comedic effect of saying I did my Masters on Facebook, but what I really want to do is tackle something tangible I can touch.
Studying campus climate, teaching students and helping to run the Positive Event Chain is not enough.
I can reconcile all of this with myself if I think of the Masters Paper as just a pit stop to what I intend to do with my PhD but I’m entrenched! Almost all of the connections I’ve made and material I’ve read – any small shred of expertise I’ve gained beyond Sociology isn’t having to do with the digital divide or technology-based community outreach, it’s all wrapped around social networking technologies and identity theory. In short I couldn’t be happy making a career or PhD out of studying Facebook but if I continue down my current path (starting interviews, doing increasingly intricate and informed specialized studies, teaching classes on the technologies of Social Informatics) that’s precisely what I’ll end up doing!
It’s not over yet, however. I’m going to make time to meet with Abdul Alkalimat this week (or next week if we have to) and just spill it. What he did at the University of Toledo with technology and community outreach needs to be done here. The wealth disparity in this town is greater than it is in Chicago and the amount the University is involved is atrocious. The best Library and Information Science school in the country has an amazing array of resources and talented people – my plan is to jump into that mess, set sights for the local community and see how much difference I can make. Time to get back to doing what I do.